Leave me in the mess – please!

Because only in the mess, will I be able to truly see the Lord’s hand at work.

Actually, please don’t leave me in the mess, because it’s the last place I want to be in!


I don’t know about you, but I often find myself in circumstances and messes where this dilemma exists.
I love seeing how God works in my life. I really really really love it.
At the same time, I thoroughly dislike being in those situations.

Then, of course, an average person, preacher, pastor, sermon etc proclaims that if I didn’t sin, I wouldn’t be stuck in bad situations. While this may be true… I’m pretty sure Jesus found Himself in a few “bad situations” during His 3 years of ministry and He for sure did not sin!

So… May I just conclude, that even if I were entirely sinless (yeah, that’s not gonna happen!), the devil would just come at me with all the more force and all the more temptations and all the more… catch my drift? And eventually he would either win over my poor selfish soul or kill me in the process, so to speak. Either would work for him because seriously; the devil would truly slay your newborn baby if he could! The guy has no clue how to spell “mercy”, let alone show it.

Sure… God always provides a way out: Yes indeed the Lord does!tumblr_static_tumblr_static_8l0munbqf6skwc0gsck400s8w_640.gif

But that will inevitably mean you have to get stuck in messes sometimes…!?! So while we do have the power to not sin, we will. The way out of it goes along “the narrow road”, but there are some HUGE gates along that narrow road!
Just saying…


So please don’t leave me in the mess… LORD!
Because only in the darkness can we all truly see the light. Amen.


Devil hits home

The last post I wrote was about obedience to God and His Word and in that post I mentioned my husband not doing and saying things he probably should have. In a previous post I mentioned that my husband told me he believes in God, likes Jesus and the teachings, but can’t really believe in a virgin birth, the resurrection etc… The main point is this: He believes in God – and he is acting out of character.

Since he is only home on weekends they are important to us, but the past 2 has been a so-so experience. My oh my… my husband is surely acting out of his character. The things he says and does are simply not coming from himself. What’s going on..? My husband may not have surrendered to the Lord yet, but he believes and Satan does not like that! The battle for his soul is playing out right in front of me and it’s fierce. Just an example to show you what I mean; Those who follow my blog will know that my dad is terminally ill with cancer. My husband told me that in case my dad falls ill, he does not have enough money to buy the flight ticket to go to Denmark. Ouch my heart… that leaves me handling things alone with my daughter in case this suddenly happens. But I can deal with it as I have to if this is God’s will. But, then my husband goes out and buys a new skateboard for our daughter and one for himself. An irrational thing to do (but fun) in the light of not having enough for a flight ticket and the imminent travel coming at some yet unknown time. This is not my husband’s character…

My husband is completely unaware of this spiritual battle taking place and I wonder what more I can do except pray, pray and pray more. God is sovereign.