Dear anxiousness,

“Blogging101”  day 4, is asking me to write a post to a specific person/people. I would love for everyone to learn about Jesus so they too can experience His amazing Grace, but since I have a daughter struggling with especially social anxiety as I do too, I’m gonna give that a shot. So who do I want to read this post: Anyone who struggles or has kid/s who struggles with anxiety as well as psychologists and psychotherapists and psychiatrists.

The story begins, and I’m only telling you this because if this is the first time you read my blog, this may be good to know… with my soon-to-be 9 year old daughter who has since Japanese kindergarten’s 2nd year, age 4, struggled with fear caused by not-so-understanding teachers and she has entirely disregarded learning Japanese language (which is pretty tough when you hold a Japanese passport!). We had no choice but to give her an international school education.

However, the fear followed her and though it seemed to get much much better during her 5th year, things went downhill from age 6 again. During her 2nd grade it all went south and we placed her in counseling where she was treated for mainly separation anxiety and general anxiety. It worked half way but not really. Her psychotherapist told us she was okay… really, she wasn’t but it’s hard to argue with an educated psychotherapist, and we were told that perhaps mom (that’s me) would need some help instead as “my anxiety channeled into my daughter”. I can’t say it isn’t true… but telling us that our girl was fine, was definitely not.

Out of counseling and for a few months – and a tough summer you can read about if you scroll down my posts if you wish – she seemed to be okay. And then, it all began all over with the tears, the fears, the pain, the… her fear of teachers are truly wrecking havoc. Due to her track record of learning math we were encouraged by the school to have her tested for dyscalculia and we did as well as adding the aspect of anxiety. The evaluation came back and shook us both up pretty bad. Several anxieties mounting up to a close-to depression.

She is starting to see the psychologist from next week (there is a severe lack of psychologists as well as psychiatrists here in Tokyo!) who will do his best to knock the tip off the iceberg and avoid the medication recommended. The psychologist want to avoid it because there are no psychiatrists here whom he trusts to handle a case like hers, I don’t want it because of various cultural issues I suppose and my husband also wants to try to see if we can get her through this without it. Albeit, if it can’t be done, then… somehow we will have to figure out hIMG_1520_face1ow to get her on the medication.

Dealing with the diagnosed social anxiety in my child is just plain sad. So so sad. She is in a school system and systems are systems as much as they can stretch, it will inevitably be a system. I must learn how to deal with this, but admittedly it’s hard to know where to begin… I go from positive to negative day in and day out. It does get better so I’m not in the cave all the time.

Meanwhile I have found a website which has been useful so far: Kids helpline

Thanks for reading… if you are a child psychologist – would you please find your way to Tokyo?? We are in dire need here…

 

 

Who I am and why I’m here…

This new beginning – a new year – I gave myself the challenge of doing the “blogging101” course. It began 3 days ago and I’m already behind schedule, but I took some time out and began with day 3, then day 2 and today I’m “down” to day 1, which is to post my “who I am and why I’m here”…

After revisiting my “about” and “ongoing” pages, I realized that those pretty much already describe why I’m here; To share how God works in my life. It isn’t always pretty and oftentimes it’s hard, but only by sharing can I bring Glory to Jesus when He wiggles His little finger and gets me out of the rut. Time and time… and time! again.

Who I am… well, that’s another ballroom dance. I’m a child of God and I’m dearly loved. That’s what I’m practicing so I can learn to see myself the way God sees me.  But here are a few more facts and stuff about me:

I’m from Denmark (the tiny country up north next to Sweden and though we are very often defined as Europeans, I do very much consider myself as Scandinavian. I have way more in common with the northern neighbors than with the southern).

Age wise I have reached the age when I look my best in candlelight which is pretty much okay with me as I am a romantic at heart.

I live in Japan. The western part of the Tokyo prefecture and I have about 30 min train ride to the outskirts of the metropolitan area. My heart belongs to Yokohama though, of that be there no doubt… I love the ocean and harbor!

I’m married to this Japanese guy who is just way too cute to keep my hands off… and we have an 8 year old gorgeous daughter (but I’m very partial!) who is about to turn 9 in 8 days! Gasp… where did time go? According to her, I’m “the best mommy ever! because I’m the best hugger, funny and clownish”… I am definitely not like most other moms I see on campus, so I get why she tells me this, but I’m confident that I’m far from the best mommy ever because… wow… but I’m pretty sure the Lord Blessed ME with this girl because I’m right for her, so – there we go ❤

I am a Christian protestant, born again, a Christfollower, a Jesus girl… and in His sight I’m (thankfully only) about 6 years old! I’m “out of diapers” but far from mature.

Things that I love… Breakfast at Jonathan’s! (see photo), writing poetry, painting God-inspired paintings, bike rides, walks along the river, archery, reading books, writing my blog, matcha (green tea) latte, coffee with milk and Starbucks gingerbread latte during december, writing and receiving Christmas cards (yes indeed) etc.

I would love to… be able to eat and drink without gaining weight, learn Hebrew and greek, conquer my fears and stress, study psychology, have the ability to pronounce Japanese words etc.

How do I spend my time? In daily life, I take care of my girl. She has school to attend and homework to do etc. I take her to a psychologist for therapy as she has severe anxieties as well as dyscalculia. My husband live and work in eastern Japan and is only able to be home on weekends. I weekly have my small group of Jesus girls and we will study the armor this year. I also read with a one year old baby Christian (what a privilege!). I’m a homemaker and on the job 24/7 without holidays and I’m not whining but just stating the fact that being a homemaker is actually a job in its own right.

Enough about me – thanks for reading and if you already know me – thanks for staying with me. Love you ❤  If you just found me; Very Pleased to meet You! I hope you will stick around 😉

IMG_3540