My wonderful and dear fellow blogger Pastor Jim Bell wrote in one of his posts, from his hospice bed, about forgiveness:
If we do not feel that God forgives us, we cannot forgive ourselves, and if we cannot forgive ourselves, it it is impossible to forgive others.
I owe a great deal of thanks to Pastor Jim. When I first began blogging he was there with loads and loads of encouragement and I dare to say that he is partly the reason why I continued blogging.
Forgivenes is one of my “thorns”… I unfortunately have a really hard time forgiving people if they hurt my loved ones – oh dear, how I struggle.
One question I always ask myself is “was it really that bad??” Usually, it wasn’t. I can deal with that.
On rare occasions, such as that time when a fellow believer hurt my daughter badly by preventing me from helping her (long story), I simply couldn’t get past it. I still struggle with it, but I believe I have forgiven the person…
Though I must say, it certainly did not help that she waltzed around acting like she had done absolutely nothing wrong.
Ugh – how that gnawed in my soul!
Forgiving her was one thing, but trusting her again is an entirely different matter – but today I leave it in God’s hands because I do trust the Lord.
For by the blood of Christ we are set free, that is, our sins are forgiven. How great is the grace of God.
I find it difficult to feel and accept the Lord’s forgivenes of my sins – I mean the sins that came after I surrendered my life to the Lord – because “I ought’a know better!”… But God is bigger than my sins. Forgiving others should be easy because the Lord has forgiven me…
God’s grace is far greater than my wrongs.
I really need to get that into my head! Embrace it… like a child who just got a puppy – with incredible joy receiving something so valuable as life.