The Word tells us that we will be tested. Sifted. Jesus prayed for us just before His arrest. But we can take heart, for Jesus has already overcome the world.
But God is the Eternal One who is Almighty, All powerful, Omniscient and in complete Control. Nothing happens that He has not allowed.
So if I list down the trials and concerns which are ongoing in my life right now with little outlook on an ending, then;
1) I focus on the dark side and surely satan can take advantage of that.
2) I allow people into the depths of my life.
So, why would I do that?
Sharing the hurt, will ease and sort my own mind. Giving things priority and help place other things in the back if they are less important.
But I believe it may be more important for people to know the hurts and trials, because one day the Lord will resolve the trials, hurts and pains and bring Glory to Himself that way.
So here is the list of the ongoing and yet unresolved, trials in my life:
My dad. Not saved. Bedridden from cancer spread to the bones (spine). 10.000 km away.
My family’s actions in relation to my dad.
The daily phone call to my dad. Staying encouraging and being a witness.
My husband. Living and working in West Japan now. Not saved. Weekends are precious.
My husband’s lately unwillingness to join me in church.
My daughter. Seeing a counselor, but having fears and worries spinning out of control.
Keeping a diary of foods my daughter eats. Her stomachache issues may stem from worries, but food sensitivity can’t be excluded.
My daughter’s school. A matter of broken trust has lead to me being restricted and not allowed to communicate directly with her teachers (culturally, in my home country, this would never be accepted).
Finances. My husband works so hard, the school is expensive (13.500 US$ pr. year and she’s in 2nd gr.).
Moving home. We received notice that we must move, so searching for a different place to live, plus added expenses in connection to this.
Stress. My own stress. (See the category of “stress – from broken vessel to…”). Though the stress has been greatly relieved already, it is an ongoing battle to not fall down into that pit again.
Trying to get off the muscle relaxing medication I am taking.
Thanks for reading. May the Lord be Glorified in all of this. Now and later.